Am I a loser?

I think I can do everything in my mind...
But i can't..

I want everything that I see..
But I can't..

I try my best to live happily..
But I can't..

I want to be love and loved..
But I never had a chance..

I want to be good friend to others..
But always, I the one that always hurt them..

I want to help others in the field that I expert...
But i can't..

I think that I'm kind a expert..
But I'm not..

I want to be a better person..
But I still far to be it..

I want to be someone..
But who am I now??

I want to be best student..
But still, lazy..

I want to have many money..
But i don't..